I always start posting with a certain font, and by the end it is a totally different one...hmm. Still learning this site, I suppose. It's beena relatively calm week,the kids are getting better from their illnesses, no terrible occurances( knock on wood) although, Jax has been a bit of a needy little man,lol. He is like his daddy, when he is ill, he wants to be well taken care of. I feel like all I have done is held him the last few days, and actually 80% of my day really has been that, had it not been a week where I need to reorganize and get ready for Miranda's 15th birthday bash, I would not give it a second thought... but he will be first, and I will manage.
Scott has been busy all week with various work, and is a busy man. He worked for a friend last Fri and Sat, which proved a PITA, due to not getting pd when they said, but he would not listen when I said it sounded fishy, and now he is mad at the situation..I digress.
All my kids got their report cards this week, and I am one proud mama! Mimi got a high B over all average, Maddy got an A( honor roll average) Nick got all A's and one B and Mack my little busy bee, got straight A's!!!! We are so happy! I have to say that me being home this yr has made a huge impact on their grades jumping up that last notch. Last year was a menagerie of best tries on Scott and my part, but I was not home most nights and he works looong days and was just beat by it, so we had some issues trying to make it all happen. ;0( This year is working out great, and we have more time to sew and sell, so it really makes up for a lot of my income loss...now sanity, is a whole other ball park,lol.. I can honestly say it was a good choice, and if he was not just laid off...$%^&*$#@ It would make it all much better,lol.
Ok, onto better subjects! This week has a ton of birthdays! After Kara was my Grandpa, he was 84 on Tues, and then comes Miranda on Monday..the BIG 15!!! We are so happy for her, she is so excited to be 15, and I am so trying to be, for her...but it's bittersweet! I think through it and see what a wonderful young lady she has become, and then I feel sad that the cute little sassy red-headed baby girl she was....... is long gone. I also know that in a few short years, she will be off spreading her wings, and doing what makes her happy, and l know that what ever path she chooses, she will excel, it is just who she is, but all of that does not make it easier to let her start this process. It stings at your heart.
Ok, enough for now, have a great THURSDAY!!!
Thursday, November 13, 2008
Sunday, November 9, 2008
*~*Kara is the BIG number 4 today*~*
This has been a very draining week for us...long and hard. The type that drains your soul.
The election took it's toll on us all, it was just one of those things you wanted to disappear and be gone. I love that I can say it is finished,lol. It was actually surreal to cast my vite. I took a second to breathe in the last moment, before just to really be in that place in time. I touched the screen and it was done. It was a great night, watching to see who would win. I was just enamored with it all. Then, when I knew who the winner was, I had a sigh of relief, knowing we as a country, had spoken, and that a new day had dawned... The after math was very scary and sad for friends I know in the south, because they are black. They had a very hard day, because people there were so cruel and hateful, how sad that is to me, in 2008, we act like freaks. I can only hope that it will simmer, and we can let this man pick up the shattered pieces of this once great land.
We also had to deal with Scott getting laid off, and knowing our struggle to pick up our own lives is going to be tested, yet again. This last 2 years have been so hard and we have had many obstacles to overcome. We almost cracked as a couple in the summer of 2007, because I think it finally hit us so hard, and trying to make it all happen was just so sad knowing the reality of it all. But, after we picked ourselves up~~~TOGETHER~~~ we have grown so much into a united more than ever couple. So, after hitting lows and celebrating highs, I know we will figure this all out, along with all the others in our same battle.
My kids have been ill this week, too, and it has been a test of my weariness, and their's. We have had some very rough nights, because of fevers and coughs, but somehow,I know we are on the mend now. Which brings me to me sick little birthday girl..
Kara is 4 today, and I see the day she was born as clearly as it was today. It was one of those days that you cannot forget as a Mom. I was over due by 2 days, and trying to have a VBAC. I knew in my heart that I could because 3 of my other births were vaginal, and Nick was a c-section, due to trauma on him, not me. It was just doing it that scared me. I was induced,because of my sky-rocketing blood pressure, and with each hour of labor it got more and more intense with pain. Pitocin is nasty and vile, and the contrax are none the less. Afetr being in labor for 10 hrs and writhing in pain I finally said to please give me an epidural. i could bare no more of it. I had it put in and after a few mins mypain was no more, but it was all on one side, so they had me switch side,and it was on that side,lol..so after tinkering with it for an hour, they finally had it goo...a little too GOOD, I could not feel my legs or stomach at all.. it was majorlly odd. Then a few mins later they came in and said my contrax were coming back to back, and I needed to be checked, meanwhile I had felt just a bit of pressure and was waiting for the dr to arrive. ( he had said if I did not have some progress by 9 , we would be doing a repeat c-section) the nurse decided to lift the blanket since he was coming and she jumped back because kara's head was crowning...the Dr was on his way, and as he got his gloves on her head was coming out, and all the while I was feeling NOTHING! he said to give a push and I swear again, I could not feel anything, and prayed I was actually pushing,lol..and the with that one push, my gorgeous little sweetheart was born. She was 7 lbs 12 oz, and just so pretty. I cried like a baby because she was safe and healthy, and I had done it. I had the VBAC I so wanted, the most. It felt like we were walking on clouds, we were just so proud. That first few moments with a new baby is like magic, like nothing I could ever put into words. There is almost a calm over te whole world, for you, as you are there,like God himself is there smiling on you all....
Now 4 yrs have past, and I really do not know how time can be so cruel, she was JUST that baby in my arms nursing for the first time, or maybe that silly toddler teetering around trying to walk...it just flies.All of you with small ones, hug them, kiss them, and know that it really does seem like a blink, and they are teens, I am there now with my oldest who will be 15 next week, the tears will be flowing...but that is for then, not today!
Happy Birthday sweet Princess Karrangton Emelia Anne-Marie!!!!! We love you so~
This has been a very draining week for us...long and hard. The type that drains your soul.
The election took it's toll on us all, it was just one of those things you wanted to disappear and be gone. I love that I can say it is finished,lol. It was actually surreal to cast my vite. I took a second to breathe in the last moment, before just to really be in that place in time. I touched the screen and it was done. It was a great night, watching to see who would win. I was just enamored with it all. Then, when I knew who the winner was, I had a sigh of relief, knowing we as a country, had spoken, and that a new day had dawned... The after math was very scary and sad for friends I know in the south, because they are black. They had a very hard day, because people there were so cruel and hateful, how sad that is to me, in 2008, we act like freaks. I can only hope that it will simmer, and we can let this man pick up the shattered pieces of this once great land.
We also had to deal with Scott getting laid off, and knowing our struggle to pick up our own lives is going to be tested, yet again. This last 2 years have been so hard and we have had many obstacles to overcome. We almost cracked as a couple in the summer of 2007, because I think it finally hit us so hard, and trying to make it all happen was just so sad knowing the reality of it all. But, after we picked ourselves up~~~TOGETHER~~~ we have grown so much into a united more than ever couple. So, after hitting lows and celebrating highs, I know we will figure this all out, along with all the others in our same battle.
My kids have been ill this week, too, and it has been a test of my weariness, and their's. We have had some very rough nights, because of fevers and coughs, but somehow,I know we are on the mend now. Which brings me to me sick little birthday girl..
Kara is 4 today, and I see the day she was born as clearly as it was today. It was one of those days that you cannot forget as a Mom. I was over due by 2 days, and trying to have a VBAC. I knew in my heart that I could because 3 of my other births were vaginal, and Nick was a c-section, due to trauma on him, not me. It was just doing it that scared me. I was induced,because of my sky-rocketing blood pressure, and with each hour of labor it got more and more intense with pain. Pitocin is nasty and vile, and the contrax are none the less. Afetr being in labor for 10 hrs and writhing in pain I finally said to please give me an epidural. i could bare no more of it. I had it put in and after a few mins mypain was no more, but it was all on one side, so they had me switch side,and it was on that side,lol..so after tinkering with it for an hour, they finally had it goo...a little too GOOD, I could not feel my legs or stomach at all.. it was majorlly odd. Then a few mins later they came in and said my contrax were coming back to back, and I needed to be checked, meanwhile I had felt just a bit of pressure and was waiting for the dr to arrive. ( he had said if I did not have some progress by 9 , we would be doing a repeat c-section) the nurse decided to lift the blanket since he was coming and she jumped back because kara's head was crowning...the Dr was on his way, and as he got his gloves on her head was coming out, and all the while I was feeling NOTHING! he said to give a push and I swear again, I could not feel anything, and prayed I was actually pushing,lol..and the with that one push, my gorgeous little sweetheart was born. She was 7 lbs 12 oz, and just so pretty. I cried like a baby because she was safe and healthy, and I had done it. I had the VBAC I so wanted, the most. It felt like we were walking on clouds, we were just so proud. That first few moments with a new baby is like magic, like nothing I could ever put into words. There is almost a calm over te whole world, for you, as you are there,like God himself is there smiling on you all....
Now 4 yrs have past, and I really do not know how time can be so cruel, she was JUST that baby in my arms nursing for the first time, or maybe that silly toddler teetering around trying to walk...it just flies.All of you with small ones, hug them, kiss them, and know that it really does seem like a blink, and they are teens, I am there now with my oldest who will be 15 next week, the tears will be flowing...but that is for then, not today!
Happy Birthday sweet Princess Karrangton Emelia Anne-Marie!!!!! We love you so~
Monday, November 3, 2008
~Been so busy to come out and play~
I swear I am in a weekly time warp. I wake up after a weekend, and start my Monday and before I know it, it is Friday This happens to me every week. the days that come inbetween the above said are just rolled into ech other, with tacked on utter craziness,lol. This past week I was a taxi service, for sure. Doctor appts, trips to the mall to finish my oldest daughter's homecoming couture, trips to the 4 schools my kid's attend( because they range in so many ages) a Fall fest at Kara's school. The list just goes on. I swear sometimes when I think about it, I wonder how on earth I was working full time last yr? Because I never really get a spare moment to myself, now, and last yr I worked so much, and tried to tackle all of this. I know one thing to be true, and a lot of these small things suffered because I just could not do it all. It was so hard...
Anyway, we enjoyed a wonderful weekend. Miranda went to her 1st formal dance that her cheerleading squad planned and decorated for. Her football team is going to the playoffs, this yr, so we thought Sat was her last game, but it was not. She is happy ;0) I wish I could load some pics on this darn blog, but everytime I try it says I have an error. I need to have Mr whiz(Scott) look at it, he is the computer man. I have so many pics to share...
Ok, so this week is looking much better, as far as whirlwindism...I have less on my plate, and I am thrilled. Today is my usual clean the house after my tornado crew is home all weekend. We sewed alot this weekend and Scott worked for a friend, so not much else got done.
Tomorrow's highlight is the election. I will be voting and the watching with sheer excitement. I have to really be honest and tell you that I am really sick of this election. I am so happy it will be over. I literally get 4-6 pieces of election propaganda a day in my mailbox. I can tell you with sheer conviction that I throw it out, without even looking at it, because I am so sad to see all the slashing going on. Granted a lot of what I get is local political stuff, but it is all the same. They all spend so much time trying to knock the other down, instead of focusing on who they are and conveying that to the public. I hate the commercials overloading the TV, the radio ads...all of it. I know I am not alone. I have just had enough of it. I also have had enough of perfectly nice and normal people turning into blood sucking fiends over this. It's like they become someone else over the election, and competitiveness. Their man is best and they have to knock down the other man, to prove it. I have just reached my end with this and will be so happy tomorrow to see an end to this...either way, even if my man does not win.;0)
Ok, so politics took over my blog this morning, but at least I have been quiet, thus far. I had one small blow-out, and now feel at peace. I hope we can all realize that for change to happen, in this lifetime, we need change. Change in ourselves. Change in who we are when we do and say. Change in the leaders to have the courage to fight for our needs to be met. ...change in every aspect of where we are now and where we need to be. I just want that for us, because we are headed down a bad path in this country, and the last 8 dark and dreery yrs are coming to an end, and whoever wins tomorrow, needs to know that we as Americans are ready for change....
Anyway, we enjoyed a wonderful weekend. Miranda went to her 1st formal dance that her cheerleading squad planned and decorated for. Her football team is going to the playoffs, this yr, so we thought Sat was her last game, but it was not. She is happy ;0) I wish I could load some pics on this darn blog, but everytime I try it says I have an error. I need to have Mr whiz(Scott) look at it, he is the computer man. I have so many pics to share...
Ok, so this week is looking much better, as far as whirlwindism...I have less on my plate, and I am thrilled. Today is my usual clean the house after my tornado crew is home all weekend. We sewed alot this weekend and Scott worked for a friend, so not much else got done.
Tomorrow's highlight is the election. I will be voting and the watching with sheer excitement. I have to really be honest and tell you that I am really sick of this election. I am so happy it will be over. I literally get 4-6 pieces of election propaganda a day in my mailbox. I can tell you with sheer conviction that I throw it out, without even looking at it, because I am so sad to see all the slashing going on. Granted a lot of what I get is local political stuff, but it is all the same. They all spend so much time trying to knock the other down, instead of focusing on who they are and conveying that to the public. I hate the commercials overloading the TV, the radio ads...all of it. I know I am not alone. I have just had enough of it. I also have had enough of perfectly nice and normal people turning into blood sucking fiends over this. It's like they become someone else over the election, and competitiveness. Their man is best and they have to knock down the other man, to prove it. I have just reached my end with this and will be so happy tomorrow to see an end to this...either way, even if my man does not win.;0)
Ok, so politics took over my blog this morning, but at least I have been quiet, thus far. I had one small blow-out, and now feel at peace. I hope we can all realize that for change to happen, in this lifetime, we need change. Change in ourselves. Change in who we are when we do and say. Change in the leaders to have the courage to fight for our needs to be met. ...change in every aspect of where we are now and where we need to be. I just want that for us, because we are headed down a bad path in this country, and the last 8 dark and dreery yrs are coming to an end, and whoever wins tomorrow, needs to know that we as Americans are ready for change....
Monday, October 27, 2008
~*All dressed up!!!*~
The kids had a great weekend, and so did we, we did cleaning, organizing their winter/summer clothes( I am still not complete there) Sunday Scott baked his famous apple pies, I swear he needs to sell them, the crust is like the yummiest shortbread you ever tasted, mmm! In the evening, the boys had scouts, and made cute stuff for the upcoming holiday.(Halloween) Nick loves being a tiger this yr, he has awaited this for 3 years(when mack starte, he wanted to soo bad) It is such a fun activity for them.
Today i did a lot of straightening the house up, and going through things. The days just fly by, I swear. Tonight we took the kids to the YMCA for the trick or treat trail, they had so much fun. I had wanted them to all be in the same theme this yr, but it was a bust, noone could agree on it, so they all picked what they really wanted to be. Jaxson was so cute. We sat him in the stroller for the 1st time without his car seat, nd he was so happy. He loved the whole thing, the place was all dark with lit pumpkins and all sorts of props, and he ate it up. He is such an inquisitive little guy, out of all my babies, he has been the most into his world. He never did the sleep all day thing, he has been alert for most of the day since day one. He does take a short nap in the afternoon, but that is really it. The boy is always so serious, as he studies his world around him.
Tomorrow I have some returns to do, and I have to ht the grocery store for a few things, then tomorrow night, we are going to the Halloween parade. The boys are in it for scouts. Kara is so excited, of course. I think that is all for right now. Happy monday!!!~
Today i did a lot of straightening the house up, and going through things. The days just fly by, I swear. Tonight we took the kids to the YMCA for the trick or treat trail, they had so much fun. I had wanted them to all be in the same theme this yr, but it was a bust, noone could agree on it, so they all picked what they really wanted to be. Jaxson was so cute. We sat him in the stroller for the 1st time without his car seat, nd he was so happy. He loved the whole thing, the place was all dark with lit pumpkins and all sorts of props, and he ate it up. He is such an inquisitive little guy, out of all my babies, he has been the most into his world. He never did the sleep all day thing, he has been alert for most of the day since day one. He does take a short nap in the afternoon, but that is really it. The boy is always so serious, as he studies his world around him.
Tomorrow I have some returns to do, and I have to ht the grocery store for a few things, then tomorrow night, we are going to the Halloween parade. The boys are in it for scouts. Kara is so excited, of course. I think that is all for right now. Happy monday!!!~
Friday, October 24, 2008
~TGIF~
T he title says it all, and I mean every bit of it. This week has been a long one. Just running to and fro and appts and hustle and bustle of it all, makes me crave the weekend. I am happy for it ;0)
Miranda had her try outs today for Cheer ( wrestling and basketball) she made it, Varsity again. They only took 14 girls this time, so there were some very sad girls, she really felt bad for them. Her friend Sam made it this time, so she was happy. Tomorrow is the 2nd to the last football game she has to cheer in and she feels like time flew, her freshman year is truely flying by her. It seems insightful to know I was there and went through it, but yeah, it really did fly, and time has warped me to where I am now, at least some days this is how I feel. It is an odd feeling to look and see your children growing up so fast. I think having the rang I do in ages, makes me treasure them at each stage, because I see how fast it slips by me.
Ok, enough of that stuff, I want to end the week on a positive note,lol.. We have a busy wekend but we will mnage as a team, Scott and I with doing the kids activities. It makes it nice when he is home on weekends.
I have a new Kara-ism to share, as she is always saying the funniest things to me, usually as we drive or as we are doing something she comes up with these winners,lol. ;0) Yesterday she swam at school, as her preschool has swimming one time a week, and she loves it. She swam all by herself floating even in the deeper 4ft area, all the kids were in their floaties it was so cute...ok back to my funny~ lol. Well today, my sweetest little angel came to me and was talking while I was doing laundry, and she had a lollypop in her mouth, and I was not paying attention, she then says " mmmm this is sooo good." I looked at her and said " where did you get that"? she looked at me, smiled and said " In the garbage upstairs"...BLECH!!!!! I wanted to laugh, but had to explain how that was NOT the thing to do EVER,lol... She is always doing the craziest things because she just assumes it is normal, and she acts like it is, to boot! she is one cool cucumber ;0)
I think that is all for today, have a great weekend!!!!
Miranda had her try outs today for Cheer ( wrestling and basketball) she made it, Varsity again. They only took 14 girls this time, so there were some very sad girls, she really felt bad for them. Her friend Sam made it this time, so she was happy. Tomorrow is the 2nd to the last football game she has to cheer in and she feels like time flew, her freshman year is truely flying by her. It seems insightful to know I was there and went through it, but yeah, it really did fly, and time has warped me to where I am now, at least some days this is how I feel. It is an odd feeling to look and see your children growing up so fast. I think having the rang I do in ages, makes me treasure them at each stage, because I see how fast it slips by me.
Ok, enough of that stuff, I want to end the week on a positive note,lol.. We have a busy wekend but we will mnage as a team, Scott and I with doing the kids activities. It makes it nice when he is home on weekends.
I have a new Kara-ism to share, as she is always saying the funniest things to me, usually as we drive or as we are doing something she comes up with these winners,lol. ;0) Yesterday she swam at school, as her preschool has swimming one time a week, and she loves it. She swam all by herself floating even in the deeper 4ft area, all the kids were in their floaties it was so cute...ok back to my funny~ lol. Well today, my sweetest little angel came to me and was talking while I was doing laundry, and she had a lollypop in her mouth, and I was not paying attention, she then says " mmmm this is sooo good." I looked at her and said " where did you get that"? she looked at me, smiled and said " In the garbage upstairs"...BLECH!!!!! I wanted to laugh, but had to explain how that was NOT the thing to do EVER,lol... She is always doing the craziest things because she just assumes it is normal, and she acts like it is, to boot! she is one cool cucumber ;0)
I think that is all for today, have a great weekend!!!!
Tuesday, October 21, 2008
Lucky number 7...
No we are not having another child...silly! This is how old my little man was yesterday! Nicholas is now a "bigger" boy, as he says. The party was a tremendously fun time, and we all had so much fun! The kids loved the games and prizes and enjoyed being with friends and family!
I almost lost it that night because in the midst of the fanfaire, I was in a hurry and unloaded the pics from my cameracard, while it was full, and instead of copying the pics, I deleted it, and went on my merry way...later, I realized that they were lost forever,and I was so upset, because it was all the before-party pics, and poses with Nick and Kara all sweet and CLEAN looking,lol. It was all the games before they were demolished, as well. I was tearful when I sw, because it was something lost forever;0(
I moved on, now and am happy it was not ALL the pics from that day~
The past few days have been very unexciting, noting fun to report, just daily drivel. Running the kids to and fro, and trying to recover from the weekend. Maddy nd I and Nick have been ill with fevers and stuffy noses, so we have had a few rough nights, but that is really the extent of all I have to report,lol..life is so FUN here in Readerville, as my Mom says,lol.
This week is going to get a little busier, we have some stuff to do and the kids have parties and games, so it will be busy later , glad, too due to everyone being sick.
I hate to even admit that Christmas is like 2mos away, where the heck did this year go? I swear I JUST found out I was pregnant with Jaxson! Really who said this year could fly by? I have to start shopping but there is so much to always do, and it seems like money just gets tighter and tighter, I still have kara's real birthday, and Mimi's to get through,then Xmas..lol.
Ok, I think I have rattled on enough for now, glad to just get on here, the last few days it wiould not allow me to post it kept timing out, so I am happy for this time!
~~~Just wanted to Thank everyone who helped for the kid's party! You all were awesome~~~~specially my MIL Donna~she helped so much with Jax~~~~HUGS!!!
I almost lost it that night because in the midst of the fanfaire, I was in a hurry and unloaded the pics from my cameracard, while it was full, and instead of copying the pics, I deleted it, and went on my merry way...later, I realized that they were lost forever,and I was so upset, because it was all the before-party pics, and poses with Nick and Kara all sweet and CLEAN looking,lol. It was all the games before they were demolished, as well. I was tearful when I sw, because it was something lost forever;0(
I moved on, now and am happy it was not ALL the pics from that day~
The past few days have been very unexciting, noting fun to report, just daily drivel. Running the kids to and fro, and trying to recover from the weekend. Maddy nd I and Nick have been ill with fevers and stuffy noses, so we have had a few rough nights, but that is really the extent of all I have to report,lol..life is so FUN here in Readerville, as my Mom says,lol.
This week is going to get a little busier, we have some stuff to do and the kids have parties and games, so it will be busy later , glad, too due to everyone being sick.
I hate to even admit that Christmas is like 2mos away, where the heck did this year go? I swear I JUST found out I was pregnant with Jaxson! Really who said this year could fly by? I have to start shopping but there is so much to always do, and it seems like money just gets tighter and tighter, I still have kara's real birthday, and Mimi's to get through,then Xmas..lol.
Ok, I think I have rattled on enough for now, glad to just get on here, the last few days it wiould not allow me to post it kept timing out, so I am happy for this time!
~~~Just wanted to Thank everyone who helped for the kid's party! You all were awesome~~~~specially my MIL Donna~she helped so much with Jax~~~~HUGS!!!
Saturday, October 18, 2008
~Busy Days~
That is what it has been for us..just a lot going on and I feel like I need each day to be twice as long. I have been working on Nick and Kara's party for a few weeks, details, details, that is who I am,lol. Nick kept adding things he would like done and such, so it was a work in progress. I got all the prizes taken care of this week, and the food was completed Thursday. Today we ran out for the last minute stuff, and finished making the games. scott worked hard on that, he is excited for the kids to play them;0)
The house is pretty much ready, and about 55 cupcakes were baked for the occasion, since our original carousel cake fell throug, last minute..sigh.
It is so funny because most of Kara's well wishers for this party, are of the male nature,lol..she is everyone's hearthrob, I was told today by one of the Moms,lol. I knew she was telling us about the boy she was going to "marry", a lot, but this gave us a huge chuckle. She has had her eyes set on a lil guy named Nicholas, and she is just the cutest with him, and the feeling is very mutual, his Mom has told me every week, in fact when he was thinking about Santa this week, he asked to write a list for Santa, and he added a list of what he should bring for Kara,lol. ( Now that is big stuff for a little tyke ;0) This will be so cute to see her with her friends tomorrow.
Nick is so happy, as well, to have his friends come to the party. he is a shy guy, so I am anxious to see how he will be with the kid's from his class, on his own turf. He does not know it, but his big wish for his birthday was granted. His bigger brother got a Nintendo DS for his past birthday, last Dec, and he oogled and drooled over it all year, and has been so patient, so my parents are surprising him with one for his special day, he will be elated, and so happy. My Dad promised him one ever since mackenzie's birthday, so this ought to be so sweet to see him when he opens it;0)
I just cannot believe my guy is turning 7. Really~SEVEN~To look at him, he is a bigger boy, and he looks older,but he is just going to be 7. He has the biggest eyes you will ever see, they stare into your soul, and with everything he says to you, you know it was well thought and heartfelt. I remember when I went into labor,like it was last yr, time is not so kind, as it jumps way too fast...but I had such a slight back ache all day and I had the same ache for weeks,so I was thinking it was just false labor, and was so passive. The only thing was that the ache was coming and going more frequently, so when Scott came home from work, we decided to go grocery shopping and get stuff done in case we would be in the hospital that weekend, as it was my due date, and we knew it would happen soon...and as we were at the check out line it started to be so strong and then I knew it was starting, so we went home and put everything away, and dropped the kids off at a very dear friend;s home, and the pain had stopped, really, just mild, so as we talked to our friend, on her doorstep, I was just saying" We will probably be back inan hour, becasue they will send me home" and wooosh, my water broke RIGHT there,lol... so on oir way we went, as the hospital was about 40 mins away. When we got there, I was almost 5 CM, but the bad news ws that I had the thickst tar like meconium laced fluid they had ever seen, and they were very concerned immediately. The hooked me up to the moniters and he was doing well, so they decided to give me pitocin and get him out ASAP, well, after a few hrs, of his heart decelling, me on oxygen, and truely praying my hardest of my life(up until that point) we were on this scary roller coatser, they would turn up the pitocen and he would just bottome out, and then I would halt my labor when they turned it off. I remember just shaking because the nurses and doctors were so stern and looked grim when they came in and said we need to act RIGHT then, because he could not tolerate it any further. They had even tried to re-add some fluid to cushion hi inside, but to no avail...
The last thing was them prpping me and literally shaving my stomach and unhooking the machines because he had no heartbeat fora long decel...when we got in the OR, they were turning up my epidural and trying to just go so fast, and it was just as surreal as it could get. I remember asking why it hurt and they said it was just pressure, and I said no that is pain, and it was because they did not have a solid epidural in, but the dr looked at me and said" we don't have time" I immediatle freaked out and asked is he alve? and they just igored me, and it was just so quiet,like a deafening quiet, you could never imagine, till you live it..and then I heard them say theywere pulling him out, and in a few seconds he was here, it was like a moment in a movie, only we were living it, he cried out, and the whole room was in such joy...we had been blessed like no other, on that day.It truely reknewed our faith in God's love, because this boy was almost not...and he was ill for a few days from fluid in his lungs and an infection, but he was here and just as beautiful as could be. I think back to that day, whenever I am challenged in my life, which has been many times over the last few years, Scott and I both do, because not everyone get's that movie moment, where they are spared that heartache, we were lucky and Nicholas was given to us for a reason. He has had many challenges, in his 7 yrs, including a language delay, and many other things but by the time he went to KDG last yr, you would never have known it, he has over come many obstacles, and when you think about it, that is why we are here, to overcome...
Ok, so on Monday morning at 7;15 am, my little guy is here for another year to bring us joy and to show us that with that one little prayer, it CAN make a difference....He is here, because if it ;0)
The house is pretty much ready, and about 55 cupcakes were baked for the occasion, since our original carousel cake fell throug, last minute..sigh.
It is so funny because most of Kara's well wishers for this party, are of the male nature,lol..she is everyone's hearthrob, I was told today by one of the Moms,lol. I knew she was telling us about the boy she was going to "marry", a lot, but this gave us a huge chuckle. She has had her eyes set on a lil guy named Nicholas, and she is just the cutest with him, and the feeling is very mutual, his Mom has told me every week, in fact when he was thinking about Santa this week, he asked to write a list for Santa, and he added a list of what he should bring for Kara,lol. ( Now that is big stuff for a little tyke ;0) This will be so cute to see her with her friends tomorrow.
Nick is so happy, as well, to have his friends come to the party. he is a shy guy, so I am anxious to see how he will be with the kid's from his class, on his own turf. He does not know it, but his big wish for his birthday was granted. His bigger brother got a Nintendo DS for his past birthday, last Dec, and he oogled and drooled over it all year, and has been so patient, so my parents are surprising him with one for his special day, he will be elated, and so happy. My Dad promised him one ever since mackenzie's birthday, so this ought to be so sweet to see him when he opens it;0)
I just cannot believe my guy is turning 7. Really~SEVEN~To look at him, he is a bigger boy, and he looks older,but he is just going to be 7. He has the biggest eyes you will ever see, they stare into your soul, and with everything he says to you, you know it was well thought and heartfelt. I remember when I went into labor,like it was last yr, time is not so kind, as it jumps way too fast...but I had such a slight back ache all day and I had the same ache for weeks,so I was thinking it was just false labor, and was so passive. The only thing was that the ache was coming and going more frequently, so when Scott came home from work, we decided to go grocery shopping and get stuff done in case we would be in the hospital that weekend, as it was my due date, and we knew it would happen soon...and as we were at the check out line it started to be so strong and then I knew it was starting, so we went home and put everything away, and dropped the kids off at a very dear friend;s home, and the pain had stopped, really, just mild, so as we talked to our friend, on her doorstep, I was just saying" We will probably be back inan hour, becasue they will send me home" and wooosh, my water broke RIGHT there,lol... so on oir way we went, as the hospital was about 40 mins away. When we got there, I was almost 5 CM, but the bad news ws that I had the thickst tar like meconium laced fluid they had ever seen, and they were very concerned immediately. The hooked me up to the moniters and he was doing well, so they decided to give me pitocin and get him out ASAP, well, after a few hrs, of his heart decelling, me on oxygen, and truely praying my hardest of my life(up until that point) we were on this scary roller coatser, they would turn up the pitocen and he would just bottome out, and then I would halt my labor when they turned it off. I remember just shaking because the nurses and doctors were so stern and looked grim when they came in and said we need to act RIGHT then, because he could not tolerate it any further. They had even tried to re-add some fluid to cushion hi inside, but to no avail...
The last thing was them prpping me and literally shaving my stomach and unhooking the machines because he had no heartbeat fora long decel...when we got in the OR, they were turning up my epidural and trying to just go so fast, and it was just as surreal as it could get. I remember asking why it hurt and they said it was just pressure, and I said no that is pain, and it was because they did not have a solid epidural in, but the dr looked at me and said" we don't have time" I immediatle freaked out and asked is he alve? and they just igored me, and it was just so quiet,like a deafening quiet, you could never imagine, till you live it..and then I heard them say theywere pulling him out, and in a few seconds he was here, it was like a moment in a movie, only we were living it, he cried out, and the whole room was in such joy...we had been blessed like no other, on that day.It truely reknewed our faith in God's love, because this boy was almost not...and he was ill for a few days from fluid in his lungs and an infection, but he was here and just as beautiful as could be. I think back to that day, whenever I am challenged in my life, which has been many times over the last few years, Scott and I both do, because not everyone get's that movie moment, where they are spared that heartache, we were lucky and Nicholas was given to us for a reason. He has had many challenges, in his 7 yrs, including a language delay, and many other things but by the time he went to KDG last yr, you would never have known it, he has over come many obstacles, and when you think about it, that is why we are here, to overcome...
Ok, so on Monday morning at 7;15 am, my little guy is here for another year to bring us joy and to show us that with that one little prayer, it CAN make a difference....He is here, because if it ;0)
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